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Speaking of mysteries…

And he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, 10to be put into effect when the times will have reached their fulfillment—to bring all things in heaven and on earth together under one head, even Christ. Ephesians 1:9-10

Be joyful always; 17pray continually; 18give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

Speaking of mysteries (well some of us were)…I have been blown away these last few weeks by two words…”In Him.” These words keep coming up in different forms like “in Him” and “in Christ.”

In Him….
Ephesians 1:13-14 says In Him we are God’s possession
2 Corinthians 5:17 says In Him we are a new creation
Romans 8:1 says In Him there is no condemnation
1 Corinthians 15:22 says In Him we are made alive
Colossians 1:28 says In Him we will stand as perfect before the Father

That is just of few scriptures of about 114 that reference in some way being IN HIM.

It seems to be everywhere I look lately and this past week even came up in our Sunday school class. We take scripture and do word studies to see what God reveals. From verses assigned we are to choose two words that are speaking to us and then share. Some days we all have the same word, some days different. One of the verses this week was this passage above from 1 Thessalonians.

Seeing a pattern in what God is showing me in scripture and study and what God was laying on my heart, the words I chose was “in”- well, with a word like “in” there is no way to discount the words that follow. So I looked it up in the context of “in Him” or “in Christ”…although I am sure it can apply in others ways as well.

Listed below are the definitions.

“In” definitions – 1 a. 1 a – used as a function word to indicate inclusion, location, or position within limits – IN the lake – wounded IN the leg – IN the summer
2. 2 – used as a function word to indicate means, medium, or instrumentality – written IN pencil – bound IN leather
3 a. 3 a – used as a function word to indicate limitation, qualification, or circumstance – alike ∼ some respects – left IN a hurry- broke IN pieces
4. 4 – used as a function word to indicate purpose – said IN reply
5. 5 – used as a function word to indicate the larger member of a ratio – one IN six is eligible

When I got to definition #5 of the word “in” and put it into that context of “in Him” I almost came unglued. I saw this picture in my mind of the church/body, standing together as one, and we stood tall toward heaven with Jesus- as the head and the whole- (larger ratio). Then each of us and all of us were equally a part of the whole, but individual unto ourselves(smaller ratios that make up the larger). While totally individual, we were all totally a part of each other and each as close to the head as any other, though not the head- the head was only Jesus Christ.  In my “mind’s eye” it was absolutely one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen…as I continued to “see” individuals would fall off of the whole and then – beauty would diminish a tiny bit at a time. But when added to, beauty would increase. It excited me so much and it saddened me too…I know I am not doing it justice because I can’t exactly explain it yet. Maybe it is a picture to paint somehow, someday…in words or on canvas or just in action. Not really sure.

Through that picture though, I had a realization of the need for each individual and for their wellbeing being interdependent (is that the correct word?) with my own needs and wellbeing. I need you and you need me. All of us. There is enough room for everyone to be in the BODY and there is need in the body for every one that He created…though some won’t choose it. Am I totally off base in the way I am seeing this because I just keep getting this picture?

Through these words “in Him” and some other things, God is developing such a burden in me for souls. I have been asking God to send me out somehow…but I thought I meant  for a week or two to some foreign place where no one knows me. In a foreign place they may see me as peculiar in the way I appear but to be peculiar at home, because of who I am, is soooooo hard. Even still, I feel Him calling me here to my home and community and my country.  To do what?!? What can I do here? I don’t really get it yet, but I feel I am being prepared to love in ways that I never dreamed I would and to love some people who I have never been all that interested in…just being honest.

 I asked for it but it is strange to feel it coming to pass in my spirit when my mind is not at all there yet. I expected my spirit and body to follow my mind. Lately though, all I am thinking on is things like “in Him” and unity and the body as Christ sees the body. I find myself crying for it and crying that I will even want it….I KNOW! Don’t say it! …but it is where I find myself. What a challenge! I don’t want it because it is anything about who I am because I am a very selfish person (though I don’t want to be and I pray for a change in my heart every day) BUT I want it because He is putting it in me, despite me.

Have more to say on “in Him” but will save it.  FYI, other word for Sunday School and 1 Thessalonians I chose was “continually”…whoa! way too late to even try to go there tonight : )

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My Church – didn’t write but don’t want this hidden within the other pages.

Biblically there is no such thing as my church or the local church.  We are all part of THE CHURCH-THE BODY OF CHRIST.  Fruit of having my church is that we focus only on MY and OUR and we only focus sometimes on building this church.  And we want to build the Kingdom but the only way we can see to do that is to build this.  How can this attitude not bring division?

God is saying that my church of America has become a narcissistic church.  Narcissism is a morbid love and admiration of self.  Comes from Narcissus (Greek mythology died from hopeless love of his own reflection in water and was transformed into a daffodil).  Church has become so self focused and enamored with ourselves that we died.  We are irrelevant and in many ways dead.  We are changing nothing in our nation.  Thing about daffodils is this…they  are beautiful but they have NO FRAGRANCE.  Says in 2 Corinthians 2:14-15 how we are supposed to bring forth the fragrance of Christ.  No one can say if they are honest that the church in America has mirrored to the world the reflection of Jesus Christ for when they smell us the fragrance they smell is of Him.

Sometimes in our thinking everything we do for God has to flow out of the local church to build the local church. Because we only focus on the local church we only focus on our success.

Not against corporate worship but against an, in some ways unbiblical human centered, need based, self centered organization that is the focal point. Something that was built to satisfy people, not God.  Doesn’t mean you don’t have nice facilities it means you don’t focus on the “sheep pen.”  It is just a place where God houses His people to help them extend His Kingdom into the earth.  Becomes much more than a gathering center, becomes a sending center.  The goal is not to be how many we can gather, but how many we can send.  Yes we will have facilities but facilities will be used for the vision, vision won’t be to have the facilities.  They are to equip the church, not to draw or impress people to build a church.

Never in the scripture is the standard for success built on speed or size.  Our responsibility is not to help build a local church.  Our responsibility is to help extend the Kingdom of God into the earth.

We don’t go to church to worship.  We are the church so we gather to worship and we worship everywhere we go every day.

We don’t go to church to pray.  We are the church so we pray everywhere, everyday.

We don’t go to church to be taught.  We are the church so we gather to equip and disciple so that we can send and equip and disciple elsewhere and we disciple nations. As a church we are to gather but we are also to send.

We don’t go to church to be pastored and to be ministered to.  We are the church so we pastor everywhere and minister everywhere.

We don’t go to church to fellowship, build relationships, etc…  We are the church so we fellowship in many places and we not only gather but we are the church so we pastor everywhere and we minister everywhere.

We don’t go to church to get people saved and healed.  We are the church so we save and heal everywhere we go and then people can get saved and healed more than two or three hours a week.

We don’t go to church to minister our gift.  We are the church so we minister our gift everywhere we go.

We don’t go to church to build up the church.  We are the church so we build up one another and He builds the church.  That is what He said…”I WILL BUILD MY CHURCH.”  No verse in scripture anywhere that says a person is supposed to build a church.

We don’t go to church to hear from God.  We are the church so we hear from God all week, anywhere and everywhere.

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Hinds’ Feet

The Lord God is my strength, and He will make my feet like hinds’ feet, and He will make me to walk upon mine high places. Habakkuk 3:19

Over the last couple of days, I have been reading again Hinds’ Feet on High Places by Hannah Hurnard and once again, I am amazed and changed by this little book.

Hind’s Feet is an allegory similar to Pilgrim’s Progress, except in this book, a girl called Much Afraid is going to the High Places where the Shepherd lives. Along the way, she has to persevere under and through the frequent attacks of her relatives – Pride, Craven Fear, Bitterness, Resentment and others. She can only make progress as she holds the hands of her two companions that the Shepherd gave her for the journey, Sorrow and Suffering.  This book was to me a teaching on the role of suffering and its relationship to sacrifice and the surrendering of one’s will completely to God.

After the Bible, this is the one book to date, that helped me most in changing my life….and I have read many, many books. These last years, I have gone through my own process of overcoming fear and moving from a life controlled by it to a life of increasing intimacy with God, where fear can’t abide. So this book is in many ways my story, but it is also a story that helped to start that story. I think it is a fabulous book and I will highly and always recommend to anyone that struggles with any degree of fear in their life and yearns for victory over it.

(Thanks to God for using this book to help me overcome and thanks to Lynn for giving me this book two years ago– What a gift!)

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Pray for your fathers

This is the word I received that I feel was straight from God. I don’t know if it is controversial but there were definitely parts that were not comfortable. I don’t just throw it to you like a “hot potato” though.  It feels very precious to me and I know I am responsible for what God asks of me. I did share this with two others that I trust and was advised to give to you.  Whether there is anyone in my life that will be completely honest, I don’t know. I give it to you because in the end you are the Pastor and I respect the authority God has given you to lead our body and I am learning more and more about that every day.  If it is not a word to be shared with others I will use it as a personal word for sure.  I also have come into understanding about the difference between having received what can be a rhema word for me and but given to someone else will sometimes be at best a logos word, if that – so I understand it may be quite different for others than me…but maybe not.

Given 10:20am 9/3/2009 having received email from Ismenia re: Bryan Barcon’s dad:

As I sit here having received an email that yet another father of one in our body has passed away I feel overwhelmed by the presence of God.  I am shaken but something is rising within me.  How many is this now 13? Yes something is rising and honestly it has been rising since the 11th but I have shut it down to which I, even as I write this, must repent. What I am experiencing makes me uncomfortable but I feel the mandate is to die to this discomfort. I am no saint here and there are many that have cleaner hands, better reputations, stronger voices.  But God says ARISE.  I really want to run but I have learned better.  So I am going to begin to write- not knowing even what will become of this and knowing I am probably the greatest offender.

The devil is attacking many. He is attacking your leadership and that is something you cannot afford to dismiss or wait out. He is attacking women and entire families but I am asking you in this hour to stand against attacks on your men and most especially your fathers. In the end that is also an attack on the entire body, all of you.

How many will it take?  11, 13, 50, 100?  How many will it take? It is time daughters,mothers, sisters, wives. It is time for my women to stand up and to pray for your men, my men….Raise your voices in prayer and intercession and even all forms of entreaty.  To rally and support them.  To command the enemy to take his hands off of them and thus this body of believers. Stop waiting on someone else to do it. Stop waiting on your men to pray your prayers and repent for your sins.  Time to band together to pray and to cry out for the lives of your men…your sons, your husbands, your brothers, your fathers. To pray for your fathers, whether you have natural fathers or spiritual fathers or whether you have no earthly fathers….all are dependent on all fathers.  Time to put the hedges of protection around them. Time to plead the blood of Jesus over their lives and even their every step. Don’t just do it once or twice…do it in this hour and every hour. Time to make a commitment to honor them and to live in unity with them.  To see them as your own selves even as you are one body.

Time to repent for the way you have allowed the enemy’s agenda to take over and destroy some of your men, my men and reverse God intended roles.  Can you see? Can you see how the enemy has used you to reverse the roles? Can you see that it has happened even in the church?  Time for some who have set yourselves as spiritual head of household and exalted yourselves in that role to step down. Can you see that the men are losing their jobs and their health and their identities in a scheme that has been orchestrated against them by the enemy and you have been used to hasten it?  Can you see how you have allowed it and you have fostered it?  How you were convinced to want it?  Time to repent for wanting it in the name of equality.  For making your own definitions of equality.  No woman is exempt and most especially those that think they are.  Time for even those not aligned with, that have never been aligned with this scheme to repent for not banding together. Repent for not using your blood bought authority and taking a greater stand.  Time to repent for cowering and thinking it would not fall on you because it didn’t fall within your present belief system. For leaving it to the next generation to deal with. For not shouting disapproval from the doorways of even your own homes. Where is your voice?  Why is your voice and has your voice through the ages been a whisper? A whisper so no flesh can hear and judge that whisper is to have given no voice. Speak up daughters. Repent for allowing and even excusing disunity within your ranks. Gossip and strife, jealousy and unforgiveness are not feminine traits…they are sin. Time for this body of women to repent and then to band together and pray in unity for your men and your fathers and your church and your nation.  Time for you to take responsibility just as you have sought responsibility. Time for you to pray beyond self seeking prayers for your own futures and desires and stand up as women, as mothers, as wives, as daughters, as sisters, as my children and say enough.

If you don’t pray for your men, my men you keep yourselves in bondage.  Everyone.  All of you!  Can you see? Can you hear these words? Don’t turn away from them. It is time to repent and to stand together and raise your voices in unity against the enemy- as one body – only one – declaring as you stand together and yet alone because you are only one… LET MY PEOPLE GO!!!

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Now that was what I call a big breakfast!!!

Whoa! Some days I think I can’t go on another minute. I am tired and weary and then God shows up and changes everything with His Word. I understand to my core this morning that the Word is the Bread and it feeds me. And I am getting that the Word is the Daily Bread is His Body and it has fed me. With the Word I am overflowing. You know sometimes I am guilty of running around looking for a touch from someone, a prophesy, a word from someone I think has a better connection to God…but I learned this last night and it was reinforced when I meditated on the scripture this morning-the Word of the Lord is all I need. It is my prophesy!! It will not come back void. It is freely given. This is the Word of the Lord:

Psalm 105:17-22
17 and he sent a man before them—
Joseph, sold as a slave.
18 They bruised his feet with shackles,
his neck was put in irons,
19 till what he foretold came to pass,
till the word of the LORD proved him true.
20 The king sent and released him,
the ruler of peoples set him free.
21 He made him master of his household,
ruler over all he possessed,
22 to instruct his princes as he pleased
and teach his elders wisdom.

Genesis 39:2-5
2 The LORD was with Joseph and he prospered, and he lived in the house of his Egyptian master. 3 When his master saw that the LORD was with him and that the LORD gave him success in everything he did, 4 Joseph found favor in his eyes and became his attendant. Potiphar put him in charge of his household, and he entrusted to his care everything he owned. 5 From the time he put him in charge of his household and of all that he owned, the LORD blessed the household of the Egyptian because of Joseph. The blessing of the LORD was on everything Potiphar had, both in the house and in the field.

What I received from God through Pastor Cathy Feemster last night and through His Word this morning:  When God gives a vision and a dream and then you speak it, just like Joseph, YOU WILL BE TESTED!! If it is a God dream then it is much bigger than your dreams could be. It will excite a part of you even if you don’t understand it all or how it will come to pass. THEN you will speak it and everytime you speak it, you will be tested. When it is a God dream things will come against it. Someone will oppose you, if not hate you. Others will feel threatened and instead of living in their own anointing and fulfilling their own dream, they will seek to destroy yours. They will try to steal it. Don’t fall for the lies and tricks of the enemy that would destroy you and quash God’s dream being fulfilled in and through you. In the midst of testing remember the dream you were given that you spoke so boldly of and have faith in the vision and in the midst of it all God will give you favor. He will work in mysterious ways. If it is a God dream then it is God’s vision and IT WILL COME TO PASS. It will come to pass and you will find that your speaking it and the favor but also even that time of testing was part of the dream being fulfilled. So stand firm even if you seem to stand alone and stand anointed.

Now that was what I call a really big breakfast and I am going to have to chew on this awhile and maybe once I do, I’ll even have come back and change some of these thoughts, don’t know… but this I guarantee- I am not skipping lunch!

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Crucified with Christ – WOW!

Co-crucified, co-buried, co-raised, co-seated, co-heir 2 Corinthians 5:21 – God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God. Galatians 2:20 – I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. If we are the body of Christ then we were crucified with Him; we were buried, raised, resurrected with Him; we are seated with Him and share all the blessings with Him. Now. but…if we are the body of Christ….I mean we really are His body, then He is also what lives in us. It is not us living but Him through us. I can’t yet explain (but you know I will try eventually) in my own human words what I get from that but it making me crazy…in a good way : )

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Crucified with Christ – WOW!

Recently, I heard Winnie Banov speak on the following: “Co-crucified, co-buried, co-raised, co-seated, co-heir.” When I heard this message, it excited me because I felt it held revelation for me but I couldn’t quite grasp that same revelation. Then last night during Bible study on Ephesians, Pastor Sammy said that we were crucified with Christ and when He started explaining what that meant to each of us individually, I felt the Holy Spirit flow through my physical body and I FELT that revelation in a very real way. It jolted me. Is that possible to get a revelation in your mind and spirit and body all at once? A knowing in your body? Strange to me how I feel.

2 Corinthians 5:21 – God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

Galatians 2:20 – I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

So my thoughts….If we are the body of Christ then we were crucified with Him; we were buried, raised and that also means that we were resurrected with Him. Are we seated with Him? What!!! Could it be that we are seated with Him and share all the blessings with Him, now?

Also…if we are the body of Christ….I mean we really are His body, then He is also what lives, really lives, in us since we no longer live. Melissa is dead; God lives. wow… It is not us living but Him through us. I can kind of understand it, even if in an extremely elementary way, but I can’t yet explain (but you know I will try eventually) in my own human words what I get from that. It is making me crazy…but in a good way : )