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Uzzah, a student, and me

“Uzzah put out his hand to steady the Ark.” (2 Samuel 6:6)

Elmer Towns tells of ten days of revival at Liberty University when one student began confessing his sins. The Lord came and they were in divine activity for ten days and nights with no one wanting to go from the meeting. Until– another student stood up and was boastful about his former sins…..the Holy Spirit left, and it ended. One touch of the hand of flesh and He was gone.

WHOA! I can’t even get words out to explain what this did to me when I read it. I wonder how often and in how many ways I put my hand out to “steady the Ark” as Uzzah did. How often am I boastful and full of flesh, even in what seems good things? Convicting…only word I can find.

So thankful for God’s grace today.

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When I pray

When I pray, I am expecting miracles, gifts of healing and demonstrations of God’s power! I believe God likes a people who grab hold of the Word of God and use it like a sword!

Jesus spoke the Word – and kingdom things happened! There is a word of healing – against sickness, disease and fear. He has already spoken the word that brought you healing. The promise has already gone forth! Strengthen yourself. Be free from every bit of oppression! Here is some of the scripture that I am praying this week…

Joshua 24:14, 15; Isaiah 1:5-6, John 5:1-9, John 7:23; Heb. 12:4-13; also, Isaiah 35:3-4 (NIV) “Strengthen the feeble hands, steady the knees that give way; say to those with fearful hearts, ‘Be strong, do not fear; your God will come, he will come with vengeance; with divine retribution he will come to save you.’”

I lift up my hands in the sanctuary and I bless You, Lord! I make straight paths for my feet – right to Your throne of grace. In Your name alone I will lift up my hands. I am strong in the Lord and full of courage and boldness, for my hope is in You. Hear me, Lord, as I call out to You. Thank You for this church, this place of grace that You have brought me to. Thank You for restoring me and making me whole. I have chosen for myself that I will fear You and serve You, the Lord all the days of my life. I choose life, healing, wholeness, restoration, and revival. I proclaim that You, my God have come with strength and You will save me to the uttermost!

Take these scriptures and declarations and pray with strength!!! Take the power of God and storm the gates of oppression, sickness, poverty.

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My Help Comes From the Lord

When I was a young girl during those times when I just needed to cry and to cry out to the Lord, I would run out and sit in the midst of the cotton field behind our house. From there in the distance I could see the mountain ranges and I would look out toward them and repeat Psalm 121 over and over. It was a passage that God put into my heart right after my dad died and I always felt like it was special and just for me. I would insert my name into it and meditate on it. Like a rainbow was God’s promise to Noah, to this day every time I see a mountain I am reminded of this passage- His promise to me. God met me in that cotton field and this gave me great comfort during those times of confusion, despair and loneliness…It still does.

I lift up my eyes to the hills- Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip –
He who watches over you will not slumber;
Indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
The LORD watches over you
The LORD is your shade at your right hand;
The sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
The LORD will keep you from all harm – He will watch over your life;
The LORD will watch over your coming and going
Both now and forevermore.Psalm 121

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Crisis of Belief

Back in the early 90’s I was a part of a group that did the Henry Blackaby course on knowing and doing the will of God, titled Experiencing God. I remember it was an awesome teaching. For some reason, I pulled the book out the other day to take a look and found myself learning again some of the lessons of knowing and doing the will of God. I want to share some of what God has been re-emphasizing to me and what He is doing in my life. Knowing and doing the will of God is a life long encounter because the Lord desires a relationship with me, not some type of arrangement based on methods and formulas. There are some truths He gives to help that only fully work in the context of relationship. One of those truths is God is always at work around us. Jesus never asked the Father what His will was rather, He always looked for what the Father was doing and joined Him (John 5:19-20). So it is not God’s highest for me to seek His will for my life, but rather ask Him to reveal to me what He is doing so I can join Him. In what He reveals to me is the will of God for me. That is the way Jesus did it.

Paul said, “Find out what pleases the Lord” (Eph. 5:10). In terms of doing the will of God I can know some of what pleases Him. He is pleased with what He is doing not what I am doing. I can have and believe I did have a vision from Him (knowing the will of God), but that does not mean I am going about accomplishing it in the way that pleases Him. I have to continually look at what He is doing and seek to do that with Him. Jesus said, “We get life from every word that proceeds from the mouth of God” (Matt. 4:4). I noted that it says proceeds not proceeded; it is what He is saying not necessarily what He said. Well guess it really is His way or the highway, the highway being frustration, added expense, delay, misunderstanding. And maybe it really can be an actual highway at times as one may walk away from a vision or a ministry believing it was never His will or intent in the first place.

I have come to that place recently in my own life…with the vision God gave me for some areas of ministry and my life. I know the vision is from the heart of the Father, but almost everything I have done in the past two years has not worked. I have worked and worked and found myself in a place of such frustration with all the doing that was not working that I really started to question the vision and if I had ever even heard God in the first place. Probably anyone that has experienced such a thing knows that is not a good place to be. After a lot of searching I have finally settled in my heart that it is the way I have been attempting to do the will of God and I have settled in my heart that trying so hard to do things my way was not pleasing to Him.

God is working, but He is not doing what I thought He would or should be doing and on my timetable. Blackaby calls this the crisis of belief and says that “God’s invitation for you to work with Him always leads you to a crisis of belief that require both faith and action.” Well, I have been in full-blown crisis. I have been at this place before in my life and just like way back then…I wanted to just run away from it all. Having been a runner in my earlier years though, I know that cost is way, way too high. So I have had to take a hard look at myself and my works and make some decisions. Am I going to continue down the highway of frustration or shall I stop and ask the Lord for a fresh perspective, for a fresh proceeding Word? I know that in retrospect that looks like a no-brainer, but in the heat of the moment and what has been clearly a battle, it has been very difficult. I was afraid if I did the vision would die, but I found that the pain of continuing is greater than the pain of risking failure. I had to surrender. God being God….the moment I surrendered He began to show me some of what He was doing and that I needed to shift my strategy to that. Shifting my strategy meant also though a shift in me. Here in a place of surrender I found that I had spent alot of energy once again trying to blame my failure on so many other things and people around me, and even God… but really…it was me. It is a lesson I go over and over in my life. Will I ever learn? His way is not always the easier and it may require major change on my part but it is always the only way.

As Blackaby states, “You must make major adjustments in your life to join God in what He is doing.”

So I have to continually make adjustments in my life to join God in what He is doing by His design. I am learning that knowing and doing the will of God really is a life long encounter and one of the ways I grow in relationship with Him is by looking to what He is doing and adjusting myself to Him. Now…God is calling me to stop and ask Him for a fresh perspective, for a fresh proceeding word and if I ever needed such a word, it is right now.