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Ungraceful in the Funnel

I am going through a transition time. Right now I feel like I am in a funnel, being poured from one vessel into another vessel (Jer. 48:11-12). I know God desires to change me…as I swirl from one place toward another. This is not the most comfortable place and I find myself out of sync with many of those dear to my heart and out of sync with much of what is going on around me. It is a time of isolation. Friends seem to have drawn back and away. I admittedly have such a new focus. The things that excite me now aren’t fully understood and some are confused by my direction. I am said to be too intense; too single minded; too zealous, etc… It is perhaps all true. Was this a choice? I want to say I didn’t choose it, but I both did and didn’t.

I believe every now and then, Jesus opens the veil and if we so desire we can to peer into His eyes for a very brief moment. Seeing what He has revealed of Himself and His love has had a profound impact on me spiritually and it has thrust me forward into this focus and transition. It seems unstoppable. There is no use fighting the transition because I have seen the promises and they far outweigh the losses….in the end (but let’s be honest, it doesn’t flip a switch and make it all that pleasant in the present. It is just a choice to focus on the promises and sometimes I do make the right choice).

I wonder is this necessary to be who God is calling me to be in this next season? I wonder if things ever strike a balance again…or would I even want them to? I want to be one that flows through this transition from one vessel to the next vessel as graceful as possible. I mostly feel awkward and strange and I do not know what to do but the Lord reminds me of Isaiah 40:28-31. It is a scripture that gives understanding on how to make a transition in a graceful way.

Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable. 29 He gives power to the weak, and to those who have no might He increases strength. 30 Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall, 31 But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.

The Everlasting God, our Lord Jesus Christ, says to wait. That’s it! Just wait. So no matter how ungracefully I swirl around in this funnel I will just keep on keeping on. I will wait and if I do He says a renewed strength will be given. He says I will run and not get worn out and my daily walk with Him will be invigorated.

I believe I will be transformed until I am to the point I flow into the new vessel a bit more gracefully and when that happens, I will be fresh and ready for the new wine of the Holy Spirit and the adventures God has planned. I believe that many that aren’t getting me right now will be joining me in this funnel soon. Once you start down the funnel, you may not be so graceful at first either and you probably won’t mind at all being called a zealot : )