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Change Me, Lord!

The devil comes to steal, kill and destroy and I am tired of it. I have a situation where the enemy has been using someone for years to try to drive a wedge in a relationship. It is a constant battle. I recognized the spirit and have taken authority as instructed by Jesus and the Word of God!

But here is reality – I can pray, and I can take authority and rightly so but – God gives all people free will. So what can I do then? Oh, I won’t stop praying…no way will I stop…but now my prayers include the request for the good Lord to CHANGE ME!!!! Change me, Lord…In Jesus Name! Amen!

And saying that prayer is my free will. So move over, satan and get out of my life!!!

The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. ~ John 10:10
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Lead Me In the Way Everlasting (Pt. 2)

Psalm 139:24 – And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

Offense will stop the flow of the miraculous in your life. We are offended about so many things and often offended at God. This is a story from the Bible about that.

Matthew 20:1-16 –
For the kingdom of heaven is like unto a man that is an householder, which went out early in the morning to hire labourers into his vineyard. 2 And when he had agreed with the labourers for a penny a day, he sent them into his vineyard.
3 And he went out about the third hour, and saw others standing idle in the marketplace,
4 And said unto them; Go ye also into the vineyard, and whatsoever is right I will give you. And they went their way.
5 Again he went out about the sixth and ninth hour, and did likewise.
6 And about the eleventh hour he went out, and found others standing idle, and saith unto them, Why stand ye here all the day idle?
7 They say unto him, Because no man hath hired us. He saith unto them, Go ye also into the vineyard; and whatsoever is right, that shall ye receive.
8 So when even was come, the lord of the vineyard saith unto his steward, Call the labourers, and give them their hire, beginning from the last unto the first.
9 And when they came that were hired about the eleventh hour, they received every man a penny.
10 But when the first came, they supposed that they should have received more; and they likewise received every man a penny.
11 And when they had received it, they murmured against the goodman of the house, 12 Saying, These last have wrought but one hour, and thou hast made them equal unto us, which have borne the burden and heat of the day.
13 But he answered one of them, and said, Friend, I do thee no wrong: didst not thou agree with me for a penny?
14 Take that thine is, and go thy way: I will give unto this last, even as unto thee.
15 Is it not lawful for me to do what I will with mine own? Is thine eye evil, because I am good?
16 So the last shall be first, and the first last: for many be called, but few chosen.

Ouch! Any offense is ugly but directed at God?! I think He would say to me(us), Just keep your hand to the plow! Hear and obey! Recognize your season and live it out! Stop being so concerned with what I instruct someone else to do. Kill criticism and jealousy in you. Keep praise in your heart and mouth! Stay in your assignment! I am a just God!”

 Help me oh Lord to continue to root out the offense and all the nasty spirits that attach themselves to it – bitterness, jealousy, competition, rejection, etc… Help me to cast them away once and for all. Help me to love Your Word so that I have great peace and live without offense. In Jesus Name! Amen!!!

Psalm 119:165 – Great peace have they which love thy law: and nothing shall offend them.
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A Sock in the Gut

There is a difference between going because you want to go and going because you are needed there. ~ A friend

Well, I have faced just about every emotion I can face over this last week from extreme joy to excruciating loneliness to overwhelming sadness to being just plain mad.

This time last year I was offered the opportunity to go to Tanzania, and I felt led of the Lord to go. What an excellent time. Not just the going but in the preparation. I was stretched so far outside my box in ministry, emotionally and relationally…. but having such a task helped me to stay so focused on the Lord and my task that my eyes were nowhere else.

This year I have been offered the same opportunity, and I thought my commitment would be for the most part a financial decision. Then as it turns out financially, I could likely make it work out even without donations. BUT….for some reason I felt no PEACE. UGH! I wish I did. I have sought the Lord and sought the Lord because commitment has to be made whether it be to accept or decline.

I have not exactly heard an audible voice, but yesterday at the radio this thought came to mind. Maybe I already know deep down in my spirit but since it is not what I want to hear I keep going back for other answers. Like the lawyer I talked about on the broadcast who asked Jesus a question and then went further to justify himself. Jesus turned His teaching on the lawyer, and I thought He was doing the same to me there. Was that His voice? Still, I kept seeking the Lord.

Then I was talking with a friend and co-worker, and out of the blue he brought up TZ and asked if I was going back. I told him of the questions I had and that I didn’t want to be out of the will of God. He stopped and thought for a minute and then said this, There is a difference between going because you want to go and going because you are needed there. Whoa! That hit me in the gut. Hard to think that you are not needed, everybody wants to be. I think at least for this time and this trip, I am not. So the emotions have flowed – sad and mad, and for some strange reason more loneliness. God tried to use the still small voice, but it took a sock in the gut for me.

Probably I should count it all joy even if I don’t feel joyful. Sometimes I wonder why God gave me such a huge desire to go places and do specific types of things when there seem so few doors that He will allow or doors with a need for me. What is the point? Oh, I know there is one and He will show me in time. Help me Lord in the waiting!

I still haven’t written the decline, but I know now I will.

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. ~ Proverbs 3:5-6